Diadem

Waking with the sunrise sounds so romantic. It wasn't until recently in my life that I realized that it truly depends on the circumstances of the night before. For example... having twins with colds who wake up throughout the night and are not able to sleep until they are in bed with you while you are also trying to nurse a baby who you are constantly aware may fall out of the bed at any given moment (or at the very least be covered in cold germs) because the bed you are trying to comfort everyone in happens to be a twin size.  Finally the baby, after nursing, not falling(because you were holding him and not actually sleeping), burping, and puking on all the sheets has decided to wake for the day and wants to play with you. Giving up on any night time rest and throwing all your hope into the possibility of a nap later, you welcome the day (because it REALLY will come whether you like it or not) and your children who need you and greet the sunrise with an attempt to separate it from all the negative feelings of "I'm not ready for this" and enjoy the colors shining through the clouds or something simple about your life. I know that there will be a day when I will be old and wrinkly and my children will be grown and living their own lives. I will have many sunrises and sunsets to enjoy throughout my life and I will have ample time to enjoy them, so I'm determined to not let the way my day starts now or the way my night was affect my goodmorning smiles and kisses. I want to embrace my children and the new day. I want to throw myself into the small moments that make up a life - come what may. And as I've been sitting here for literally 7 minutes and have been interrupted more than 10 times-"shooing" children out repeatedly so that I can have a few Mommy moments to myself- I'm grabbing on to patience with all my might and choosing to embrace my life, and love even when circumstances don't make it easy... that's when the choice becomes Glorious. Rise up Glorious Women of God and receive your gems forged in secret, one day you will wear a crown in which they will be displayed openly and know that God revels in the loveliness of your heart every day when no one sees.